Today was a great day. I love that I woke up with Liam on one side of me (in his bassinet of course) and Winston on the other side of me. The sun was finally out and was shining bright...this hasn't happened in a while, and I know everyone was giddy with sunshine today. Winston and I had a somewhat rough night with Liam waking up alot earlier than we had planned, thus, thrusting us into our parental roles a whole lot earlier than we anticipated. However, we worked it out with alternating who was on baby-duty while the other one slept. I must say, Winston got more sleep than me, due to the fact that he had to work tonight, AND he doesn't have breastfeeding boobs that wake him up! It's not fair! Nonetheless, we had coffee, cinnamon rolls, and morning smiles.
It was about 1 o'clock in the afternoon when I finally was able to get up and get a shower. By 1pm, I had fed Liam a few times, given him a bath, made breakfast, cleaned up the kitchen, and did some laundry. I must have a knack for timing, because Winston was trying to get up and get ready for work as well. So we did our bathroom dance as we shared the space together, catching each other's eye all the while. By 2 o'clock, I was showered, dressed, and ready to go, however Liam wanted to eat before we headed out. By the time we were done with all of that, it was about 3:30pm! Aye yay yay...
So Liam and I went shopping and did other errands, and I can honestly say, he is the best child to take out. He slept the entire time! As I was shopping, I found other shoppers and passersby peer into the stroller to check out who was in there! Of course, they think he is the cutest thing! :) I'm a proud mama, what can I say? We were going to take dinner to Winston, but he said he was too busy, so we were on our own. Chipotle it was! We sat outside at one of the tables, and as I ate and read my People magazine, Liam slumbered away. It was great!
When we arrived home, we did our routine of diaper changing, feeding, and burping. But it was during the burping session that I found myself getting choked up. I had my laptop on the arm of the couch, and it was doing a slide show of my pictures saved on the computer. As the pictures were changing, I found Liam transfixed on each picture. So as the picture changed, I would say, "that's Mommy," and "that's Daddy," and "that's Mommy and Daddy together" and I was just overcome with emotion! It was seeing all of the old pictures of Winston and I from back in college and afterwards that choked me up...knowing that we have been in love for so long, and knowing that from that love, we created Liam. I look at Liam everyday and can't help but think about how much we both love him...he will definitely know and feel it! It's just so crazy to see him grow and develop everyday...it really just amazes me! I was watching Oprah the past few days (it's her final season...!) and she had some of her most memorable guests on the show. During one of the shows, she covered a mother who was taping herself because she was dying of breast cancer and knew she was going to die, and made a series of tapes for her then 6 year old daughter. I put myself in her position, and thought about what I would do for Liam if I knew I was not going to live to see the next year. Would I begin writing him letters? Would I sit in front of a video camera and record myself? Would I gather pictures together and scrapbook it all for him for easy perusing? Yes. Yes. Yes. I would do it all for him. I can't imagine that after the million kisses to his forehead, his cheeks, his toes, his belly, his hands...I would think that he would know that I love him so much. However, I know that he is too young to remember. I put myself in this poor mother's position and thought about how emotional it must be to talk to a camera as though you are speaking to your offspring, and talking about life lessons, do's and don'ts, and everything else in between. It got me thinking...what would you say or do if YOU found out that life was short on time? Do you think you could fit ALL of your messages to your children on tapes? Do you think you could help guide them towards being the best person they can be?
I am about to crawl into bed and look over at that precious, sleeping, bundle of joy. I wish the world for him. I want him to be happy, healthy, and in love. I want him to find his purpose and fulfill it. I want him to have children of his own and understand how deep love can really go.
~Keep in the sunlight~
Jess
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